my cold world

2009-08-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

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Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

2009-07-17T19:17:00.005+08:00

here's my review to the movie, harry potter and the half blood prince.. overall, its okay... out of 10, most probably i will give.. 7?? good point- funny scenes, awesome actors and actresses, cool frightening scenes... bad point- was expecting much much more fighting scenes...
all of us were really expecting more, like dumbledore's funeral, fighting scene of the school when snape killed dumbledore and so on... but its still pretty nice... really hope the next two last movies have more exciting scenes, which will make us that watch the movie wanna watch it over and over again... this series, harry potter and the half blood prince, managed to make me feel like watching it again... as did sorcerer stone, prizoner of azkaban, goblet of fire... wad the other one?? I watched all harry potter movies except order of pheonix... really hope the last two movies on harry potter and the deathly hallows is better, or the best!! it would be such a nice finale and will always be my favourite movies and novels....

i get such a great laugh on the bus too... beause of shane, and wad i saw on the tv.. haha!!! thinking about it makes me wanna laugh again...

jolene's back!!!!!

2009-07-05T17:26:00.003+08:00

yay!! she's back!! though i know that she want to surprise us, and i was waiting for her to apear, it didnt occur me that she wil suddenly appear in school... i was talking to wilson, and suddenly, "morning!!!!" and i tot, hey, sounds like jolene, but it can't be... and whn i turn around, i saw her, and i immediately cried... i was just so surprised and happy... i seemed weak huh....

dun care, anyway, she's back til next sat...

WELCOME BACK JOLENE~!!!!!!!!

raining... >.<

2009-06-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

yay!! its raining again!! i'm loving it so much... i think i've been deprived of laughter for a long time, and today, i tried to laugh all i can at school... its seriously good to be able to laugh out... can train your stomach muscles too.. haha..
i can't use any of my signature emotions, cause its causing trouble to my posts... i guess its the reason why some of my posts go haywire.. haha.. now i can't express my emotion... haiz...
i wanna go listen to music le...and omg, chinese o lvl is just 2 to 3 days away..... i'm not prepared yet....

rainy days.. >.<

2009-06-28T16:02:00.006+08:00

yay!! its going to rain soon!! i love rainy days!! its like the earth is showering... and temperature will become cooler too... isn't that wonderful??

Nobody from wonder girls is so popular now!!! >.< people hum it on the street, people blast it in their cars... looks like people are getting korean crazed like me!! hmm, in this case, then i'm considered a sunbae.. cause i love korean stuff much longer thn most people.. haiz, last day of june holiday... and when school reopens,i have to work hard for studies and cca... from 2moro onwards, i have to work hard and stop playing...

i'm supposed to step down!!!!! but no, the school doesn't allow us to step down.. all because of this and that performances... well, i'm honoured to perform at the singapore youth festival's closing ceremony held at the esplanade, but i dun wanna perform at the speeech day..... why?? no particular reason.. just don't want.... haiz.... i can't do anything... have to go for it.... haiz...
i think there's something wron with my blog.. cuase it wil omit out some of the things that i type out... any one got any ideas why?? tag me to tell me please...

despising myself

2009-06-24T19:48:00.005+08:00

i seriously hate myself.... as in physically.... why?? cause of my rotten, good for nothing nose.... i've been sniffing since pri 4 alll the way til now... its seriously irritating... can't i have a normal nose that function properly??? shheeeesssshhhh... T.T

today is such a cold day!! >.<>.<>.<

haiz.... dunnoo wadda say.... shall not elaborate any further... >.< bet any one who read my blog will not wanna know what i did today rite?? its boring for you all to read, and bore me, to write it...

attracted to goong drama

2009-06-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

I'm just so in love with this drama... though its quite old, about 2 or 3 years, i still find the storyline romantic... i've watch this drama for like, 5 times??? its just soo nice, i'm never ever going to be tired of it... >..<>.<>.<

korean dramas are the best, cause most dramas have a "moral of the story" behind it.... my mom love da chang jin... >.<>.<

2009-06-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

i think my life is meaningless now... my com broke down.... i don't now what's the matter with it, but, i can't switch the cpu on.... now i have lost all my entertainments... i can't watch shows any more!!!!

well, lets start from the beginning, 1st, i dun have a tv for 2 yrs or so, cause it fried up when we watch it too long( thin its my mom), then, i depend on the com for shows and dramas... seriously, shows are my life.... i watch funny ones to destress... every day, my com usage limit is 1 hr (rules set by my mom), and i have to use every precious second of that one hour carefully... its been the 2nd day since its spoiled... I'm just so.... uncomfortable, what's a stronger word for that?? it like, so hollow in my heart....

you may ask, how come i get to type this entry when my com broke down?? i'm using my mini laptop now... and i can tell you, this mini laptop, seriously is so sucky... i can't watch any videos or shows on this thing!!! its the screen size prob, which makes it unable to let me watch my precious shows... T.T I'm feeling just so horrible... sae yeoh says that i can now concentrate more on studies... but seriously, i can't live like this... to stuck my face into textbooks for days and days and days, i seriously will die from the lack of entertainment... and those horrible nightmares will return when I'm stress up again.... seriously, this sucks so much... T.T

oh yeah, and my mom is like soooo happy that the com break down.. she hate it when we(my whole family, excluding her) use com... but hey, that's our ONLY entertainment left, what do you expect?? she says she seriously, definitely won't repair it... she's just so jumping with glee now... evil.... pure evil... even more evil than me..... (shane should know what I'm talking about) I'm just like a zombie this 2 days... T.T

seriously wanna break down le... trying so hard, just so hard to persevere.........

2009-06-18T10:24:00.002+08:00

haiz... this days, i think i'm going to blog more.. >.<>.<

nowadays, i feel as if i'm alone... like i dun have much friends to talk to... and, hmm, how do i say this, it makes me, such a pessimistic person, feel that maybe i did something wrong, causing people to stay away from me... haiz... seriously.. and i can find no one to talk to, i can't keep troubling sae yeoh to keep hearing me ramble... haiz....

so what can i do??? either do homework or keep reading books... i'm such a hermit seriously dun wanna go out.... i think there may be some side effect about it... i can't stand sun light, it hurts my eyes.. just now, when i'm coming home from school, i seriously have a laborious time trying to keep my eyes open.. my eyes hurt so much.... haiz, what's the matter with me?? must be getting soft...

i think i have skip quite a number of yoga lessons, which makes my mom scold me for being such a weakling... well, my excuses are i'm back late from school, or when i erm, having stomach pain (gals should know wad i mean) seriously, when you come that think, its just so hard to do yoga... maybe i'm too pampered, thats why i'm complaining, grumbling about it.. i must not be pampered and cannot be... i'm so going to try my best.... well, wish me luck! >.<

2009-06-17T13:07:00.002+08:00

oh my.... after reading some blogs (once in a full moon wil i read blogs or even write mine) , i seemed to have learn quite a number of things.... not to trust others so easily, and looks can be deceiving... don't think that those whom you treat as real close friends, are really friends to you... you may discover some horrible, and heart breaking truth about them... i've learnt my lesson, not to trust every one...

why are people so two sided?? in front of you they will put on a facade and be your friends, and make you think that oh, i have such good friends, and yet behind you, they will show their true colours... is there no such thing as a friends in this world?? are people always alone?? without friends, its very lonely, and your world wil only be in black and white, but i think i would rather live in a black and white world, than to live in a bloody world where you wil get hurt by others easily....

sigh, friends, are there such things as friends???

2009-06-17T12:41:00.001+08:00

phew... i had such a had time, changing my blogskin... and i'm so hungry!!! only ate a cake in the morning before going to school... *o* haizz.... dun feel like blogging... byebye.. >.<

2009-05-21T21:51:00.015+08:00

ooo~~... >.<>.<>.<

2009-05-14T17:25:00.005+08:00

uuuaaa....... >.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>

boys over flowers is going to be broadcast in singapore~!! pity i don't have a tv, can't watch it again.... T.T nvm... >.<

seriously nothing to write any more... blogging isn't dat nice... i rather watching show on internet than bloggin... >.<>.<

2009-04-03T21:16:00.005+08:00

i'm seriously dead tired... =_= mid yr comming soon too... i can't afford to rest, must pull up my socks more like jolene... >.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<

2009-03-08T10:59:00.007+08:00

phew... yesterday my class has flagday in the afternoon and some of us have a social studies talk in the morining... by the time i reach home, i almost fell with exhaustion.... =_= i slept at 12 plus the previous night, woke up at 6 plus, went for ss talk at 7.30am, went for flagday at 1 plus... its my 1st flagday, i was worried that i'm gonna stand in the middle of somewhere and ppl will just walk past me... but hey, i think i manage to get at least 1/3 can full... pretty good huh? sae yeoh get the most, cause she wore the big banner.. haha!! its so tiring, i stood for 3 hrs with sae yeoh, yin ru at the interchange... after some time, jennifer came and join us, mf pop in from time to time... >.<>.<>.<>.<>

after eating, i seriously have got no more energy left, so i went home by myself... i reached home at around 8 plus, after showering, blow my hair dry and hit the sack...

i woke at 8 plus today, did some homework, and now preparing for tuition... and oh! the teacher called me and said she can't come for tuition... this means that i have more time to revise!! >.<

2009-02-19T20:27:00.004+08:00

Boys Over Flowers (Kkot-bo-da Nam-ja)

Kim Beom as So I-jeong

Kim Hyun Joong as Yoon Ji-hoo

Lee Min Ho as Goo Joon Pyo

Koo Hye Seom as Geum Jan Di

today i have Amaths test.... hmm... its okae, except i suddenly forget how to find stationary points... >.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<

oh, the shows that i have been watching recently are we got married, and boys over flowers!! >.<>.<>.<

2009-02-18T21:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BDAY CHANGMIN~!!

happy birthday to the guy who can sing the highet pitch in dbsk, changmin!! >.<

2009-02-17T19:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BDAY YUNHO!!

to the cool guy whose dancing is the best, happy bday!! >.<>.<>.<>.<

2009-02-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

yoz..... i'm tired..... this week there's 5 tests..... how cruel is that?? i almost can't cope with chenistry and biology, but thanks to wilson for teaching me chem, and my mom for forcing me to rest, i managed all the tests....

next week, there will be even more tests, and quite a number of it are common test... test test test..... i'm sick of them.... =_= yesterday, something happened which makes my family to be on bad terms with my relative.... i'm sad too see such things happen, but because of some selfish reasons they had, i am damn pissed with them for even trying to spoil my family.. confusing huh?? but i can't say much... no one understands me.... nvm... =-=

i'm really tired... if this is wad a sec 4 life is all about, i wanna hurry up and get it over and done with... i don't even have the time to even listen music... and syf is coming.... the teachers are torturing us.... we practised for dunnoo how crappy long and in the end we only get 15 mins break.... wad the crap?? we aren't robot, we can't keep doing wad is expected of us and not even rest... one day, i will go crazy, and i predict that day won't be long...

2009-01-26T14:05:00.002+08:00

HERO JAEJOONG'S BIRTHDAY!!
My collection of some pictures of Dong Bang Shin Ki's Hero Jaejoong!! Happy Birthday jaejoong oppa~! >.<

2009-01-05T20:04:00.002+08:00

A new year, a new start! today's the 2nd day of sch... soo tiring... =_= i had a hard tym trying to keep awake... and my brain is rusty, i can't seem to remember last year's infos.... haiz..... tired...... and we still have to do stuffs for the sec one orientation... haha... =_= TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-26T15:38:00.005+08:00

3rd Day's Picture...

me and sako san.. >.<

me and my buddy, hisako shiraishi. she tell me to call her sako.. so its sako san! >.<

i bet some of you have seen this before on tv or anime, it looks soo cute that i have to take a pictures of it!

taddaa!!! every thing done by me! >.< its so hard to draw the face.. =_=

then, the pink cloth and finally the red one.. taddaa! except the face aren't drawn on yet... >.<

1st, stick the paper and the black cloth on the clam..

the things needed to make the keychain..

our work bench, making a tiny japanese doll key chain out of clam and bits of clothes and paper...

when the tongue sticking out... >.<

japanese traditional toys... >.<

displays in the handi work place

this is some display shown in the.. handiwork place?? i'm not sure whats the place called...

testing my camera in the toilet while waiting for wen hui.. >.<

in the end paul san had to use my sweater to make a dark background so the mist could be seen... (well, slightly.. >.<)

3 idiots trying to photograph the mist they make.. (no offence hwee chieh and wen hui! >.<)

2nd Day Of Japan Trip

2008-12-26T15:14:00.002+08:00

well, on the 2nd day of the Japan trip, we went to the ceramics museum, and have an exchange kind of thing with the koto professional and her student. sounds like we didn't did much eh? well, there's time to shop, but because me, wen hui, yin ru, jing ru, hwee chieh, marion, kanghui and 4 juniors have to perform for the professionals, we needed some time to practise, and flex our cold and stiff fingers which have not been practising since our guzheng exam or guzheng lesson. some of us grumbled and whine, mostly the juniors, i forget whether did i make any noise about us not having time to shop, but i think i did.. but after a while, i found out that we really are in need of practise, and i rather forsake our shopping trip rather than our pride.. after the practise, (which eat into our dinner time, which left us about 15 mins to eat) we rush back for dinner in the hotel.. the performing place is quite a distance from the hotel, and we have to walk in the cold for quite a distance, on the way rushing back, i dun have time to put on the thin sweater, so i was just wearing a short sleeve black shirt... and i can tell you, once you step out of the performing place and going down the steps, its so cold that my teeth chatter like hell... i had to grind my teeth and hurry into the hotel place and run for my dinner... i can see all my goosebumps... brrrrrr..... T.T i tried to gulp down my bento dinner, but still can't make it in time, i still have to waste some of it... sob... T.T and we then rush back to the performing place, where we had to make the professional koto player and her student wait.. gomenasai~.. T.T

the performance went well, there's not much mistake done, and we have to pin up our hair!!! every little bit of it!!!!! i got a wide forehead, so for people with wide forehead, its best we covered our forehead with our fringe to look nicer... sobbb... peng lao shi clip it up for me... sobb... T.T and after that we get to hear the koto professional and her student perform, i've film down their performance, but uploading it is simply soo long.. hmm... any one got any idea where i can save my file and you all could go there and see it??? we got some Q&A session and the girls swarm over to "stare" at the student, who is so tall and younger than us!! i think she is 12 years old, if i'm not mistaken.. >.<

by the time everything ended, its so late and we went back to our hotel to rest... i did remember to put on my sweater now! haha... me and wen hui showered and she went next door to chat with the juniors who was given the room next to us.. Me, i just sit on my bed alone in my room and watch a comedy variety show on the tv... and i can tell you, the language gap was so large that the idols in the show are laughing at the jokes whereas i'm sitting dere, staring sleepily at the screen... i went to sleep after the show and wen hui showed the juniors in our room to look at me sleeping... =_=

2008-12-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

soobbb..... hyun joong and hwang bo seperated.... there's a korean variety show called "sunday night we got married" whereby a male and a female star is chosen to live together for a period of tym and were given "missions" to do together once every two weeks i think... and they will broadcast it... there's a total of 3 to 4 couples, and this couple is my favourite pair... its just so sad that to see how they spend their last day together, and wad they sae to each other... waaahhhh.... its just so sad to see this..... sobb.. i know i shouldn't be crying over such matters, but i can't help it... sobb.... haiz....

2008-12-16T21:43:00.004+08:00

oh yea, i forgot.... the 1st day, i went to try the hotbath (not hot spring, its kind of a public bath filled with hotspring water?? guess so..) with wen hui, hwee chieh, kai yun and some of our juniors... for those who have not tried it before and its the 1st time experience, its like OMG!!! 1st, you can only bring your toiletries, a face towel and bath towel provided by the hotel to the public bath with you, 2nd, you cannot wear anything into the washing area and bath, 3rdly you have to leave everything in the changing place beside the bath!! we were all so excited and embarrass, even when we haven't even step near the whole place!! and mind you, we didn't wear anything under our yukatas, except maybe undergarments.... so embarrassing!!!! =>.<= so when we are supposed to take off everything, we decided to go in naked in pairs... 1st, the juniors, then hwee chieh and kai yun, lastly me and wen hui... me and wen hui the last one cause we won the sissors-paper-stone game... >.<>.<>

oh crap, all my post has disappear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i type for so damn long de la!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid ******* man..... for those that know me, its the curse word that i use often, sometyms for no reasons.... shitty crap la... so pissed off.... nvm, shall type on 2moro.... grr...

2008-12-15T14:33:00.005+08:00

2nd day......

Me and wen hui's 2nd/3rd/4th day room

the view from our window

Us, with the Koto professional player and her

student

see the difference between koto and guzheng??

STARTING OF MY ANY-HOW-SHOTS...

the small garden in the ceramics museum

on our way into the museum..

isn't the sky beautiful??

see how small the apple is? it taste almost like apple...

smaller than my palm!

2008-12-15T14:29:00.003+08:00

Oh crap... just my luck to have this kind of sis.... guess wad?? she has gotten me into trouble again... and the worst thing is, all three of us (me, her and my brother) get BANNED from using the com... so pissed of with her.... grr.... i just making use of the excuse of finding somethings to blog, and check my mails..... and today is Dong Bang Shin Ki's Xiah Jun Su's BIRTHDAY!!!!! woohoo!!! happy birthday junsu and junho!!! >.<

i'll try to upload 2nd days pictures today... afap (as fast as possible) laggy com, so hard to load... hehe.....

2008-12-08T12:47:00.003+08:00

for the 1st day, we took an overnight flight to fukuoka airport, the trip there was.... uncomfortable... =_= plus because i didn't eat much the night before, i got gastric... haiz... when we reached there, we went to the instant noodles factory, and toured how they make instant ramen. but before that, we maked our own udon noddles! haha... i were in a group with wen hui, hwee chieh, kai yun, and many others... with, peng lao shi, our guzheng teacher. throughout the whole process, peng lao shi participate the most.. haha!! its like she's experienced, but she said its only her first time.. all the while i was writhing with pain... i still thought it was gastric, but later on... well, after that we get to eat our own made udon noodles! haha... after eating, i was so bloated and my stomach still hurts.. i tried to vomit out the food, but it's too stubborn to come out. so when we are on the coach, i concluded that it may not be gastric, but there's too much air inside my stomach. wen hui lend me her medication oil and after that, i get better...

the 1st night, we stayed in a traditional japanese hotel, where the room's floor is covered with tatami mat.. it was very nice, we got to have an indoor balcony and also an outdoor balcony! it was soo cold at night... brr... its the 1st hotel with a hot bath too! we get to wear a yukata too! haha!! we had so much fun exploring the room and trying the yukatas... hwee chieh said that the whole sec 3s must wear the yukatas to dinner, in the end only me and wen hui wore... sobb.. feel so betrayed.. haha!! me, yin ru, wen hui and jing ru share a room that night... wen hui and jing ru are like, gone crazy le! they keep giggling at small little stuff.... =_= our sleeping arrangement was door/toilet/bathroom

wen hui

jing ru M

yin ru E

me and yin ru were the only sane ones that night.... haha!!! its the 1st nite that i'm lacking of sleep.....

2008-11-28T18:20:00.003+08:00

haizzz.... had a tiring day today... yesterday i went for my guzheng exam... its like a disaster.... i made so many mistakes... no distinction this tym...... sobbbb......

back to the point, my aunt brought her 3 children to stay over at my house for dunno how long... all her kids are so young, i had so much trouble.... sigh... one of them keep switching of my com when i'm using... feel like smacking him, but i can't... haizzzzzz.. will start to upload the pics when i have the tym and energy to do so.... gomenasai.....

2008-11-26T13:59:00.007+08:00

1st day's pictures

those who wants my pictures, just email me which one you want.. just write which day's picture, with a little of my description in, i'll mail you the original resolution one asap! hope you like my pictures!

nice treessss >.<

this is the statue that is made in memory of the

teachers that are teaching when the atomic bomb

was dropped.

aren't those trees majestic???

any how snap shots

maple leaves... kireiii~!!!

see the stacks of thing in the middle??? its all books filled with names who has died because of the atomic bombing dropped in nagasaki, whether straight away death, or because of the effects.. it will be updated every year.. see how cruel atomic bombing is??

beautiful skyy~~

yu hui acting cute.. sorry to yan xiu for taking ya too!

one of the statues at the peace memorial park

this is the fountain which they says shape like

a angel wing.. it does looks like... plus the wind

blowing the sprinkles of water at our direction,

brrrr!!

any how taken shots...

the sun setting.... isn't it nice???

this is how our room looks like, for the 1st nite

(the biggest luggage is mine~! so proud of it!)

CAKE~~!!!!! my favourite!!!

this is a yukata, different from kimono. its only

a piece of cloth wrap around your body with a

sash. (i noe i'm acting cute, dun mind me >.<)

my dinner~~ (i have not finish taking wad i

want yet~ >.<)

you can see the view of nagasaki from the room.

at nite, its all sparkly lights.. very very nice~

you dun see much hdb flats rite??

arent' the sky nice??

haiz.. drizzling...

a peek into our neighbouring room >.<

the view from our 1st hotel room

our room, me, wen hui, yin ru and jing ru

2008-11-24T12:09:00.002+08:00

konnichiwa!!! i'm back!!!! japan is soo nice, the people there are very warm and courteous, the places are sooo nice, the sceneries are so kirei, the food there are so oishi, the guys dere are so kawaii~!!! haha!!! i'll be uploading all my pistures and write about each day in one post, so those who wants my pictures, email me with the codes on top of the picture with your names, i'll sent you the original resolutions. but, not more than 20 kae??? cause i'm quite selfish about my pics, not so willing to giv all my pics away just like dat.... so, enjoy my blog, minna san!!

2008-10-25T17:52:00.001+08:00

the video that jolene took when we are in seoul garden, i will upload ltr.... my camera no batt... >.<

2008-10-25T17:19:00.006+08:00

when jolene got her present

when we are on the bus, jamie took it for them

all three of us! (i look ugly... T.T)

whole class photo!!!!

doesn't this look like jing ru?? >.< no offence...

sae yeoh and sharol act cute!! >.<

sharol and sockmin... >.<

Har Par Villa!!!

when we are on the bus.... some snap shoots....

darling and darling.... haha... thats wad they call each other...

whole row occupied by 3e1!!!

jol eating her breakfast while i testing my camera...

2008-10-25T16:56:00.005+08:00

yesterday was jolene's fare well party... i had a difficult tym trying to lie to her, giving excuses.... we meet up quite early, me, gladys, and jol, were supposed to meet at bus stop... and while i was waiting there, i saw man fung... i was so shock, wad if jol came and see him dere, i think it will ruin the surprise... along the way to meet all of the 3e1s', there are some slip off here and there, but she didn't suspect anything... haha!! when we reach buona vista mrt station, i can see the whole class lining up at the bridge there.... me and gladys cover her eyes and guide her there... she was sooo surprised!! haha!! i had such fun to see her surprised face... but her reaction wasn't wad imagine.... oh well.... a little dissapointed then....

and gladys keep pinching our cheeks, in the train and when we waiting for bus with the whole class... its damn painful de, she dun wanna let go too... soc... was a little piss off, the last tym she pinch i almost cried.... now swollen and painful.... shit... gladys, on tuesday you watch out.... ^>.<^

we went har pa villa, and get bitten by the mosquito so much, and went to seoul garden later on... its was so smoky than after the meal we stink like hell.... >.<

i'm the 1st to surrender from eating, and head for the dessert... they sae i very wasteful... oh well... i've got small stomach.... so in the end i sit down and eat again... haiz....... will get fat de looo..... sobbb..... eat so much.... shane and pei wei don't get to eat, they got to go for BB... haha!! bet they were drooling while swimming.... and finnaallyyy... dessert!!!!!!!!! ice cream, ice kachang, apples and fries.. all the desserts... i ate all of this.... so proud of myself.... haha....

then later we went to arcade.... jol play a while and she have to go... alexis play the basketball shooting game, and he's like so pro..... omg.... so power la.... among our classs... haha... i played shooting game with man fung... he die 1st... haha!!! yea... den i play some funny game with zi yun, reng hong and wilson, some kind of three person play, each got three buttons to press on, red green and blue... zi yun was like soo ji dong,,, scream until my ear almost blasted off by her....

den i went home..... haha... so tired... hope jolene have a good time... remember to buy us presents kae, jol?? if you read my blog!! haha!! i wan something can eat de.... >.<

2008-10-02T18:54:00.003+08:00

i was eating cereal in the afternoon and hey, there's this pattern... i didn't do anything to it... cool huh?

sigh... 2moro chem and maths paper.. dunno can do well for both subjects... hope to do well... maths, i just have to practise, mrs lee pei kee gave us 10 papers from many schools to do, and i kinda left 2 more... >.<>

every time when going to start the paper, friends will sae good luck! luck?? i dun believe in it... working hard is the most impt... think this is the 1st tym i will ever stay up late to study... no confidence that i will do well though i finish revising chemm... just feel that i still have not revise enough.... how??? wad's this stupid feeling?? i can't afford to do badly, my mom will not allow me to go japan if i didn't do well... mid yr, my rank was 25/40 in the whole class.. i will be very happy just to get 20/40 this tym... i really hope to improve...

2008-09-29T14:45:00.002+08:00

uuuaaaaaa.... today's weather is sooo sunnyy.... its really really hot too!! but now.... the sky looks threatening.... so dark..... so weather is unpredictable..... yay!! finish humanities and language papers le... left maths and science... shit, i dun like chem... well, not actually dun like, but i find it hard to understand.... so stress... >.< _=" i'm">.<>

sigh.... wad can i write???? there's nothin to write.... oh yea, i woke up late.... sheesh.. wad's the prob with my darling phone??? it doesn't ring me up punctually anymore... any more anime to watch?? i watch tons of anime with my sis le... like princess princess, daa daa daa, and lots of it with japanese name, so hard to even remeber the tittle... =_= but all she ever watch are those quite childish... sheesh.... =_= aaahhhh... but bored.. there's nothing to watch... shall i go play neopet??? haha... childish... =_= hmm... i can't play angel online, cause my com will crash again like last tym... =_= cost my mom a bomb to repair... i'm really bored!!!!!

2008-09-21T14:14:00.003+08:00

yozzz... haiz... just came back from tuition... had the teacher teach me physics.. find that hey! physics aren't that hard to understand... i still left amaths paper, chem paper, and chinese "mo xie" to do... find some tym to surf the net... after this i will be a good gal and study... =_=

dunno why this year's end of yr exam, i treat it very very seriously... i didn't use the com everyday, only on weekends for the past weo weeks i think.. when exam starts, i'm not gonna use the com at all... so won't update my blog till then... after exam, i'm gonna play play play!! haha!! no use thinking of it now.... concentrate on exam 1st...

oh ya, dong bang shin ki's 4th korean album is gonna come out!!! woohoo!!!! i got one song le... here's a pic of their album pic... the song's so unique!!! haha!!! gone crazy le... gone crazy le..... >.<

2008-09-08T21:16:00.004+08:00

haiz.. just watch finish this movie called "virgin snow" on crunchyroll... its a romance movie... sigh... so nice... =_= the gal got a really big pair of eyes... sigh...

today school reopens le... haiz.. so tired... i have never gone crazy for one week le, today suddenly let out a little of my craziness.. haha... X_X today's lesson are quite a bore, but for the sake of myself, i paid attention... i understand chem a little bit le eh.. wow... finally... dun like chem... haiz.... exam is near.. all the teachers gonna nag about it again... i wil work hard this tym.... i really will... wil prove to some one that i'm not lousier than her.... stupid little brat....

2008-09-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

here are some pictures of him... he looks really cool... even if you don't like him, please don't insult him. thank you!!

2008-09-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

haiz... today got guzheng... and i get punish... sob... T.T for being late when coming back from guzheng... sheesh... and we get punish to do wad?? guess... we are punished to stand and play... don't think its nothing, or its a light one, try standing for 1/2 hours and keep playing... almost all sec 3's get punish... cause we are late... >.<>

there's this korean drama called "iljimae", Lee Jun Ki is the main actor.. its damn nice... i watch until... whoa.... i shall put the pic on another post, or it will affect my post... then i will have to retype everything... =_= don't think that just because he looks like a gal, actually, he is reaalllyyy cool... and he really projects all the emotion well... especially all the sad ones... and he really act stricken... damn nice.. some tyms, i will also wanna cry.... i'm like very emotional....

2008-08-26T15:59:00.004+08:00

haiz... at last tests over.... 2moro i have to g make ic... but i got guzheng practise!! but 2moro's the last day for making my ic, so i have to go... sheesh... i have to go msyself... no one go wif me... sob.... T.T

today me, jolene, jennifer and zi yun get punish... and sent out of the classroom.... haiz... so paiseh... but, the breeze outside was nice and warm... and the clouds are nice to look at, so i don't mind.... anyway, ms carol also not teaching anything, so never mind... 1st time i get punished, to be sent outside... woah.... and my english is dropping... ALOT... i better buck up... jia you!!!!

2008-08-16T17:43:00.003+08:00

UUaa.... Absolute Boyfriend, a manga, but now there's a japan drama, is sooo nice~!!!! the last few episodes are so touching.... i cry while watching ToT use so much tissue.... i'm very emtional, so dun care me.... waahhh!!!!!!! really very sad.. nighto, the robot ideal boyfriend really sacrifice so much for riko... really very very sad.... sobbed..... you guys should watch... I mean.... those that like romantic dramas, so on, should watch... every girls, in their heart, wishes for their right one to come... and all of us will try to imagine how they are like, and make a image of them in our mind.... ToT crying while typing... really touching!!! sob sob sob.... i'm like a crybaby... hahas.... TOT

2008-08-14T19:57:00.002+08:00

haiz.... today so tired.... so many period of chem lesson.... sheshh.... and i dun understand a thing... ssooo tired.. theres so much homework too.... zzz... think i'm getting exhausted... those nightmare is coming back.... oh no.... T.T today i've seen a expression on zi yun's face, which i have never seen before... its like her whole face brighten up, and will have a wide smile on her face..... wow... and she's looking at shane.. hoho... haha.... kae... sorry... just like to see new things every day.... and ms tay smile at us when we walk by her... her smile was so... cute... haha!!! i know you will think i'm mad, but really... makes me giggle so much... haha.... >O< sigh.... really tired... oh, shane say that when piggy give him sweet in the moring, she like got blush... haha!!! haiz... i'm real tired... nites, every one!

2008-08-13T18:55:00.002+08:00

Ya!!!!!!! MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! HOHO... i'm 15 yrs old now!! so old.. haha..>.< wilsonnie give me sweets ad gummy worms!! haha... just because i'm a fish doesn't mean i like worms... haha... thanks owl!!! your card is funny and nice too!!! haha... sae yeoh and sharol gav me a watch!!! its black in colour!!! hoho... shane gave me chocolates and a cap!! that cap is so manly.... haha!!! really like it alot!!!i shall eat one piece of chocolate per day... this way, it wll last longer!! haha.... thanks sae yeoh!!! thanks sharol!!! thanks dolphin ni-san/ shane... hahahaha!!! i really like all your presents!!

when i'm studying today, i suddenly thought, hey, am i sensitive??? whenever i see people whispering and glancing at me, or when i heard my name, i'll get curious, and start to think nonsense.... even when people say things, i'll think it in the wrong way and get upset about it. jol and others say i'm too sensitive, i guess i'm really am.... shi hui sae, since i got the energy and time to think anout all this, why don't i use the time to know more about my own self??? the problem is... i don't know how... haha... anyone knows??? oh yea.... komin sae i'm childish... am i??? i know my thinkin is somewhat immature, so my behavior is too??? i'm behaving my normal way, my real self.... hmph, i shall not care what she says... its better to be my ownself, rather than try to act like what i'm not... but i should try to change a little too.... thats wad jolene says... when people say about you, you must think of your actions and try to change it if you think you are wrong... if you thnk you aren't, then why get upset about what people say?? just be yourself. and thats what i'm going to do! haha! anyone who is in a similiar situation as me??? take this piece of advice, and you'll feel better!! i'm always here to lend anyone of you a shoulder to lean on when you are tired, a ear to hear your woes... only that i can't really give good advices... haha.... but saying it out is better than keeping it in your heart!!!

2008-08-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

sheshh.. feel so abandon.... BIASE PARENTS!!!! just because that stupid mei always play truant, then both of you are keeping an eye on every move i have done... WHAT DID I DO??!!!! I HAVE NEVER PLAY TRUANT BEFORE!!!! AND I'M ALWAYS THE MOST OBEDIENT ONE!!! LISTENING TO WHAT YOU SAY, OBEYING YOUR EVERY ORDERS, AND YET YOU DISTRUST ME!!!! SHE'S THE ONE WHO IS IN THE SRONG, AND YET YOU ARE WARNING ME!!!!!

luckily sae yeoh "counsell me"... sheeshh.... haiz... since you both are my parents, and you let me be in this world, and i respect and love both of you, i will forgive you... but please, trust me little.. and care for me more... don't think that i'm independence... i'm too independence now... which will make the distance between us more further and further.... haiz.....

2008-08-06T21:19:00.004+08:00

Yah... today, mrs lee let us have some straw to make some 3D figures... its much better to have this kind of interactive lessons rather than boring, tedious ones... I hope we get to have more of such lessons not only in e maths, but in other subjects too... although the three sciences have practical lessons, which is some what fun and amazing, but i want something different, something that is real fun!

today P.E, we play dog and bone... its quite funny and exciting, but needs some thinking for strategies to win... sorry... haha... i'm quite competitive.... >.<>

Of course, like floorball!! most girls don't like this sport, coz its rather violent... haha... but its real fun!! you have to work really well with your team mates! so when u are in a team with people you like and dun like, you an try to bond more with them and understand them more... shhessshh... I wonder how jamie manage to type without seeing... haha.... keke... >.<>

Oh yeah, Le zhu gave me candy floss today... WAAAAWWWWW!!! i really like to eat sweet things!! >.<>.<>

2008-08-05T20:06:00.006+08:00

today, that dumb pig came and "bash" me (like it was a bash?? more like a cat fight) and woah... i still got a mark on my wrist where she dug her nails into... I don't want to play wif her or fight with her, she just scratch... and after wrads, when i got out of her clutches, I stuck out my tongue at her... she came rushing down the stairs, ready t kill me... as if i let her kill... just wait... if u are not my junior, or someone whom i dun seem to like, u die... i'll rip out yr eyes, slap you til u bleed if u dare to treat me like what u did in school... shheessshhh!!!! i'm really very very pissed off by that pig.... and jomin attack jolene when jolene did nothing wrong to her.... which makes me triple pissed off!!! No one treat my friends like that!!!! and shane did nothing wrong too... if u wanna hurt, jus hurt me wil do!! just because i called you a happy pig... wad's wrong wif that?? some ppl just too sensitive.... friends called me FISH, SNOWFISH, BLOODFISH, and i accept it... wads wrong with having a nick like this?? this shows that your friends accept u as you are...

worst of all, I'M YOUR SENIOR!!!!!!!!!! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY RESPECT FOR ME IS IT??? thats why i hate getting too friendly with juniors.. they will climb over your head.... get mature gals... stop thinking this way... Oh yeah, claire and elise.. just because both of you saw me walking beside a guy and going for reess with them doesn't mean that their are my BOYFRIENDS!!!!! its just that me and my other two galfriends go to recess with them every time... sheesh.... hmm... by saying galfriends sound abit lesbian... sorry, should be two gal good friends.... haha.. hm... should i put one dbsk photo to make me feel better?? yea... i will.... hoho....

2008-08-03T12:26:00.002+08:00

sigh.... cross country's coming.. i reallly hate it... sec one, we don't get to run as it was raining, sec two, we did run, and luckily i brought my water bottle wif me, or else i wil die of dehydration... haha... >.<>.<) I think my stamina have drop alot... i'm just not the sporty type.. haiz.. >.<

Now i understand why every one says they want to stay as sec twos or sec ones... cause when you reach sec three, your everyday schedule wil be study, go home, rest, study, eat, sleep... on weekends, for me, its guzheng lesson, go home, rest, study, revise.... so in your sec three year, most of your time, you will be studying... haha... but our class sure know how to hve fun! like during pe, during recess, and we are gonna have a bbq!! hoho... i guess it will be so fun... and we get to wear our newl made class tee on that day! phew... it save me the trouble to think what i'm going to wear on that day... class tee and baggy pants for me!! haha.... hope to see every one from 3e1 THERE!!

2008-05-24T14:59:00.002+08:00

hhaaaiiizzzz.... didn't do weelllll for my exams... i get 25th in class... how bad is that?? my mom talk ssooo much when it's my turn to get report bookk... i'm real depress over it.. i guess i have to work really hard this hols...

these few days, the talks that the school organised for us is quite meaningful... I could even find articles about it in the newspaper! >.<>

i keep thinging, wad can i do during this hols?? i have to go for tuitions, CCA's, Guzheng lesson, extra lessons with mrs loke and mr phoa... all this only takes up a bit of my hols... wad can i do?? keep practising guzheng and piano, do assesments, and wad??? someone give me some suggestion please....

stress....

2008-04-08T17:23:00.002+08:00

After coming back from China, there's just so much things to do... It's like having a dream that ended so fast... now, mid year exam is around the corner... and i still have got tons of things not done, not revised, worst still, not learnt.... it's just so stressful!!! I really missed the times i had with my friends in china... what i really missed was the amusement park there, my buddy, and the time we had our meals... it was just so fun! If i had the chance, i will want to go to China again, with the same group of friends....

It's raining now, so cold, dark, horrible, same as what i am feeling now.... i find it quite interesting that some times our moods can match with the weather... how i wish time would past slowly, so i have more time to finish up everything... i know i'm wasting time now, typing how i feel, but i just want to get this load off my shoulder... tomorrow, i'll be having chinese oral exam.. i don't think i will do quite well, as i have not prepared anything for it... never mind... i'll try my best... i think i will have to forsake my time for resting and get everything done... wish me luk that i don't get too exhausted!! >.<

some pictures.....

2008-03-21T16:55:00.006+08:00

here are some pictures we took in china....

wow! snow! its not like ice kachang, the snow is
roundish in shape...
a special fountain i saw....
Su Dong Po and his 1st wife... they really look like that!!!

Qian shou guan ying done by Pak Teng, Sae Yeoh,

Lee Ying and Hwee Chieh

quan jia act cute!!!
quan jia fu (from left, me(daughter), chia chern(daddy)

kea hoa(mommy) and wei jie (big brother)
quan jia fu with "distant relatives"
shane sleeping!!!! haha!!!! keke...

My buddy's house
my group (from left, esther, me, jolene, jasper, wei jie, mdm tan)
Our hotel room! (it has eerie background chinese music)
I became hungry when i see how they crunch up the bamboo shoots
the one sleeping on the right looks like me when i'm sleeping!!

Me and my buddy... she's only 12!
Me and chia chern... see the height difference?!
I'm real short.... got a new aim.. Grow taller!!!

This is when they were playing basket ball at the school, and kea hoa help me took it... in action!!
Me and statue su dong po
Isn't this panda big?? me and sae yeoh look small beside it...

familiar yet strange... jealousy and loyal....

2008-03-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

just came back from china. went CIP today... i find every one so strange, so cold towards me... maybe is i think too much....
my heart is healing up from a long torturous break, thanks to every one, puttting a smile or a laugh on my face almost everyday... i wonder when i will have the courage to like or love anyone??? maybe ten years later.... now, studies is the most important i think.... As the new term starts, i will try my best in every subject i do.... I suddenly have this question... what is love??? is it sweet, ppl live happily ever??? or is it painful, yet makes people feel fortunate??? what is real love??? does real love exist in this world??? how would u noe if u like or love some one?? how WOULD U NOE if someone love u whole heartedly???

IN CHINA NOW!!!!!!

2008-03-11T20:27:00.002+08:00

konbanwa!!!! good evening!! helloo every one... i'm in china right now... using my buddy's computer... its so fun in china and ccooolldddd...... last few days, i went to er mei shan, le shan da fuo, the school, pandas and alot of place... i'ts my 1st time ever seeing snow!!!!! we even build a damai snowman in 5 min.... and i took a "quan jia zhao"!!!
today i stay over at my buddy's house... she brought me to the amusement park... i met lee ying, xiang yue, shaney, wei jie, william, shawn, leanard, my "daddy" chia chern, and alot more.... we went to play together... it's fun and very thrilling... i scream until my throat hurts now... i like the pirate ship most... (eventhough i'm scared and have to use shaney's hand to cover my eyes...) i really had a great time over here... but, i won't forget all u friens.... i bought some keychains and handphone accessories of pandas for u all!!! too bad i can't put the pics into the com rite now (no cable... haha... >.<) nonetheless, I MISS YOU ALL!!!!! did you miss me???

a super stormy weather

2008-02-21T21:20:00.002+08:00

What a stupid bad day... 1st, i don't think i did well for all my tests today, then, i have to stay in school for the twinning project thing until 6, then get nagged by my mom who disallow me to watch movie with my friends, and still have to do this do dat, do so many house chores, i'm VERY VERY stress and tired, when wanting to conference wif wei jie and jolene abt the twinning thing, they BOTH WENT OUT....

1ST, I'M ALREADY VERY STRESS BECAUSE OF HAVING TESTS ALMOST EVERYDAY AND FAILING EVERY TEST I'VE DONE, I REALLY FEEL LIKE GOING INTO AN ETERNALTY SLEEP, AND NOT WAKE UP FOREVER....

2ND, DUE TO THE STRESS, I KEEP GETTING HEADACHES EVERY NOW AND THEN, AND I FEEL LIKE CRACKING MY BRAIN OPEN AND THROW IT INTO THE SEA.... I GET LETARGIC EASILY BUT CAN'T FALL ASLEEP BECAUSE I WANT TO DO BETTER INT FUTURE TEST SO I HAVE TO BE AWAKE...

3RD, I STAY IN SCHOOL UNTIL 6PM AND DID NOTHING EXCEPT TO DISCUSS HOW WE SHOULD INTERVIEW AND SO ON AND 2MORO I HAVE TO HAND IN A PIECE OF WORK WHICH I HAVE TO DISCUSS WITH WEI JIE AND JOLENE, YET THEY BOH WENT OUT, LEAVING ME AT HOME WRINGING EVERY DROP OF BRAIN JUICE TO DO THIS PIECE OF WORK AND MEMORISE WORDS FOR MY CHINESE SPELLING TEST WHICH I FAIL THE LAST TIME AND HAVE TO RETEST IT 2MORO...

4TH AND LASTLY WHICH IS THE LAST STRAW IN TURNING ME MAD, IS MY MOM DON'T UNDERSTAND ME, KEEP SCOLING ME AND SAY I'M LAZY, SAY I PRETEND I'M BUSY AND THEN WATCH TV, SAY I'M NOT FIT TO GO OUT WITH MY FRIENS AND IF I EVER WENT TO WATCH ANY DAMN MOVIE, I BETTER WATCH OUT.... I HAVE TO DO ALL THE HOUSE CHORE AND NOW, I'M TOO TIRED TO MEMORISE THINGS FOR MY SPELLING, DO THE TWINNING WORK, MY HMWK, AND PRACTICE GUZHENG!!!!!!

WHY CAN'T I GO OUT WIF FRIENS JUST TO RLAX??!!!! THIS YEAR, I HAVE ONLY GONE OUT ONCE WIF MY FRIENS ONCE THIS YEAR AND IT IS TO BUY SOME THINGS FOR TWINNING!!!!! I HATE YOU, HATE YOU, HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2008-02-17T16:07:00.002+08:00

It's a long time since I update my blog... Me and wen hui have to be "in charge" when guzheng cher is not dere.... haiz..... from the feedback i have been getting, it looks like i'm too fierce and wen hui, too gentle... but wad can i do??? every time wen hui tries to give instuctions, they are so noisy and dun wanna listen. when we start playing then they dunnooo wad to play... and when we gave them time to practise, the use the time not to practise but to talk... den when weplay toghether, they tell us they dun noe how to play.... so i shout to get their attention... is this called fierce??? but wad we do is for their own good, we want them to improve and not stuck dere.... the looks they give us makes me think we will be dislike by them.... how i hate it.....

people keep getting angry at me.... and wad's wrong with me?? if anyone of you have things dat u dislike abt me, just tell me STRAIGHT in the face so i can change my attitude and ways......
i'm real stress now... 1st, we have test almost everyday and i get nag by my parents everyday on how i should study, how much marks i should get and they cmpare me to other childs..... I really feel as if i'm really bad in everything.... so since the other children are so good, why dun they disown me and get the other children as their own?? i'm just a stupid, lazy girl who can't get good grades and live up to their expectation....

new year, new style...

2008-01-16T11:29:00.002+08:00

it's a new world.... and all of you keep telling me to post somethings... well... okae....
since it's a new year, den i will use a new style, new words, new blogskin, everything new...
and i try to write something a bit challenging for me.... To shi hui: here you go, at least i wrote SOMETHING..... to everyone else, happy new year( too late now , i know) and let's face any obstacles and problems together!

new year, new style...

2008-01-16T11:29:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 4th of december 2007

2007-12-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

Today, I get angry very easily at my siblings... Just because of some trivial matters, i get angry... I read from somewhere which said that when u get angry too much, it will cost u some days of living. So its better to laugh and smile. I really feel very frustrated with them but wad can I do??? They always give me nothing but trouble... Always fighting with me for things, bad habits showing up, stubborn and what they want means they MUST have it.... Did not help out in the house but expect to be treated like princess and prince... I really feel very tired off them... How I wish I could live by myself.. Then I will not have to worry so much... But living by myself would mean me, in a house alone... If it`s during the day, it would still be ok... But when it reach night... I don`t know what I would do.. But with no mother nagging at me, siblings making me angry, it would be great.. I`m starting to get angry again, nagging will only make my head ache.... sigh... what should i do?? I wanna pierce one more hole on my left ear... should I?? Will it hurt alot??

3rd of the december 2007

2007-12-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to the same place where I took my guzheng exam to take my results... I meet up with wen, yin ru, hwee chieh and marion before going in together. There was ssooo many people who get distinction, which is the same as me. We had to watch the concert whereby those who get highest in all the distinction in different chinese instrument will perform their piece.. At 1st, during the first half of the concert, I was able to sit there, paying attention. The pieces they play was nice, and they are able to express it well... but the girl playing guzheng was not good as i expected... Her left hand lank of strength even though she wear the nails on both hands... Tdoay, my dad make me some food to tryand his skills really improve... I think he is better than in the past. He played with my brother and keep him happy, which was really the opposite from the past. In the past, he would scold my brother for being noisy,watch tv and not care abt anything when he came home from work, and of course will not make us dinners. But now, he would do all this... Because he have no time to bring my bro home, I went to bring him home... Recently, the weather became quite cooling, so i could enjoy the breeze while going to bring him home from childcare.. How i wish the temperature could stay lk this...

wednesday, 28th of november 2007

2007-11-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from malaysia.... left not much tym to practise for the guzheng exam 2moro... haiz!!! but i think i will do just great.. this trip back to malaysia is quite ok... but quite a jam when going through the custom... i help out with the food stuff, take care of all the children, and went fishing with me dad(but didn't catch anything >.<) after two days at my paternal grandma's house and after all the praying, i went to my maternal grandma's house... my big uncle's daughter, my cousin brought me to shopping. the shopping mall wasa humongous!! there's many things to buy too!! she help me choose a shirt, a jeans and as pair of shoes (a bit high though). it was so great of her... it's a hard thing helping some one to buy things and go shopping with them but u dun buy anything... i'm forever grateful to her, but the clothes she choose doesn't suit me. it makes me look too wild, to mature... and i observe that the teenagers there wear clothes that are too "over".... they look so, strange to me. but anyway, i think the clothes are quite ok compared to the clothes teens wear over there.. the jeans cost me $60 ringgit over there, which is around $30 over here, quite ok.... i saw couple rings too, its real nice, but u can wear both rings together too, i thiunk i 'm gonna buy one the next time i went there... this trip is because my grandpa's death anniversary, and i have guzheng 2moro so we can't stay dere soo long... all my little baby cousins are sooo ccuuttee!!!

Sunday 11th November 2007

2007-11-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

today i feel so lazy... sleep until 12 pm.. since when did i become like this?? from tomorrow onwards, i'm gonna wake up earlier.... went to see others blog.. mostly blogs of tkps friens... i lazy to tag jasper so here's the message to u... " i know u got alot of stead, but have u really love them?? and wad do u mean more than me?? u mean u have more steads than me?? okay, i admit, but i dun have a stead before... and when i think abt the past, i'll feel embarrass abt my childishness and sorry to u that i treat u that way.... but u make me more aware to the world and the things happening around me which wakes me from my own innocent world... i'm grateful but also irritated that u pull me out of my world so early..." i'm gonna practise more on my guzheng and get distinction for my exam.. gambate~!! fighting!!!!

Monday, 5th november 2007

2007-11-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

yay!!! I'm being stream to 3e1!!! At first when i ask qi jia to help me check, I was unsure whether the results is correct or accurate... But today when i went to school for guzheng lesson, i saw wen hui and the others at the board where the results is posted, i went to see and i really is in 3e1!!! And I found out that 3e1 majority have 2e1 in it, (21 of us) , 7 or 8 boys (5 from our class) and darwis is the only malay boy.. (haha, dunnoo whether they will still change in class anot...) /// when i went to help my parents buy somethings, i saw my reflection in the mirror... so i look so -------- ... it makes me wonder how ppl look at me... wad am i lk in other people's eye?? i really wanna noe....

Tuesday, 30th October 2007

2007-10-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

Wow! yesterday was such a fun day.. at 1st when at guzheng, i was so restless and i started to count down to the gathering with wen hui.. but after a while, i suddenly feel that maybe i should not go... but anyway, who cares?? so i hitch a ride on jasmine car... me jasmine and we hui were the second batch to reach the venue.. wen kai, jolene, lee ying and cert was there already.. we join them to start the fire (which was very hard to start up)... after that, when the others came, me and lee ying go rent skates to play.. i was not used to the skate so on my 1st try, i skate so fast and couldn't stop and... u can guess the ending... and that was the only time i fell... i think.. fiqridive into the sea and lost his spec and wallet... some of us went to help him find it and sat last, maybe a few hours later, we finally found his stuff... yesterday was the 1st time i tried to heat up my marshmallow.... it was superb!! but i burnt one while trying to get it toasted by putting it too near a burning charcoal... haiz... we played alot of game too... and i played tricks on others.. haha.... i put ice down lee ying and reng hong's shirt and run off... it was very fun... haha.. i'm soo mischievous aren't i?? make me sound like i'm a monkey..haha...

found some pics of dbsk and super junior

2007-10-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

here are some pics of dbsk and super junior...
dbsk:

jaejoong

jaejoong and yoo chun

jaejoong

Super Junior

hee chul

lee teuk

hee chul

sungmin

dong hae

kibum

han kyung

Saturday 27th October 2007

2007-10-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

Monday we will have a class party at east coast... Woo yea!!!!!

i get easily frustrated and angry today... haiz..

i'm gonna enjoy myself on Monday...

oh, and i wanna talk pics of u guys at the party... be prepared!!!

Firday 26th October 2007

2007-10-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

haiz.. today was the last day of school... although i went to school as usual, but when the lesson was going to end, i felt a stab of sadness... it is lk something was stuck on my throat, tears well in my eyes out of control and my heart have a kind of hollow, uncomfortable and sad feeling... the thought of not seeing all of you in the same class next year make me wanna cry... and i hate the thought of having to see new faces and not the usual cheerful and cheeky faces... i feel as if people from other class is intruding into our class, which make me feel very resentful. is this the right words to use?? anyway, all u friens should noe how i feel... by streaming us to different class, it means not seeing the usual guys fooling around, us joking with mrs eileen lee, us watching horror movies together and get scare by guys,(and hearing jolene scream :p) , us playing cards, playing psp, seeing keith doze off in ms tay's lesson, going for trips together, joke and play with each other.... it really breaks my heart.... eventhough i have just seen all of u in school today, i have begun to start missing all of u, seeing yr smile, movement, hearing yr voices and noise... i miss you all!!!!! (even now, while i'm typing, i already is crying for u all...) why must the government be so cruel as to stream us to different class??!!! just when all of us has already bond together and become a real class.... I MISS ALL OF YOU!!! I know its not nice to say this but I LOVE YOU ALL!!! (in the friens kind of way) muakz!!!! sob sob....

2007-10-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

today in school, we watched ALOT of horror movies.. it gives me creeps... think I'm gonna have nightmare for a few months... and i found out dat ma's birthday is only 4 days later!!! i think me and mei going to share $$ to order pizza... i can't buy it myself.. it's too expensive for me to afford, who have only a meagre pocket money.. and all of it still also comes from ma and pa! i resolve that when i grow up, my wish was to sent them to korea for a holiday, let them do whatever they want.. on their birthdays, i will buy presents using money that i earn myself to buy them gifts... i'm very tired today...... very.... and sae yeoh is still angry at me... haiz... we are juz fooling around, and yet, because of a pinch from me, she get angry... so sensitive... every time i get "attack "by her, i also never sae anything... nvm.. ma's back.. better shut down com..

Tuesday, 23th october 2007

2007-10-23T18:31:00.000+08:00

today, was such a boring day... i did nothing interesting today at school... oh yeah, when i play PSP, i actually was able to win... i feel like i achieve somethings... i'm soo tired... but i can't take a rest... Guzheng grade 5 exam is getting nearer... about one month and one week... i have to practise hard so i can get good marks... i really wanna get good marks... all my past piano exam, i did not take them seriously and i don't know why it is important to do well because i was so and ignorant... now i've grown up, i then become more sensible and aware what is happening around me... so.. wish me, wen hui, yin ru, marion, jing ru and hwee chieh luck!!!

Saturday, 20th october 2007

2007-10-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

I really hate my sis... she really is a pain in the neck... always take my things without permission, rude to me, do not clean up, treat me as a maid, when need me then treat me nicely.... I really hate her!!! what can i do to her?? I really want to hurt her, let her feel all the pain, trouble, anger and unhappiness she caused me... i really want to inflict some pain on her... I keep losing my things when i need it and i can find it all in her drawer...

Friday, 19 october 2007

2007-10-19T20:24:00.000+08:00

haiz... practise my guzheng until the string break... is it because i played too hard and for too long or the string already wanna break le?? feel so moody now for no reason... wish holiday would come soon... eh, but wad can i do during the holiday??? some one giv me some ideas...

Friday, 19 october 2007

2007-10-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Ma at last explode... Say what from last year I never improve but keep dropping... All because I keep using the computer.. but I did maintain rite??!!! this half of the year i keep working very hard... Yet still get scolded... I hate ppl who keep nagging at me!!! I did my best yet she still want more.. Then mei leh??!!! Next week is her examination week yet u let her play computer for all she wants... When I'm going to have my exams, I didn't even play so... really hate her!!! Even Pa also want to nag at me... Why are all their expectation so high???!!! It really make me very very burdened... Blame me for not doing well... Who's the one who are at fault??!!! It's both of u?!! When I was young did u even care abt my studies??!! NO!!! All you care is mei and di... I had to even look after him and neglect my studies!!! Now u blame me for my poor results!!! this half year I really did work hard... I'm really stress... Today I want to have a good rest also cannot??!! Just because i sleep until 11+ and didn't have my breakfast, u nag at me and blame me that I didn't help out at the shop??!!

Thursday, 18th October 2007

2007-10-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

Today we got our academic "results"... My ranking is 21st for our class and 45th for the whole level.... for these past 6 months, i work so hard for it... it's really very hard, yet i maintain at 21st... feel so.. frustrated... it makes me think that all my hard work has gone down the drain... anyway, i'll be very happy if i can get into 3e1.. i've just watched "fly, daddy, fly" a movie done by lee jun ki... it's quite nice actually.... when i practised my guzheng, i can feel that my strength is slowly slowly disappearing... that cannot happen!! i need it for my guzheng exam!!! and alot of u say my blog have absolutely nothing on it.. well, here it is... my 2nd post.. i maybe writing an essay... haha... i'm still new to this blog thing so there may be error here and dere... mian-ne... just put up with me... here are some pics of my favourite stars.. it may be aaaallloootttt...

busy week..

2007-08-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

this week is sooo busy.... i have to do 2 presentation and there's tests this week....
i'm so tired!!!! hope holidays will come soon...